A Sound Investment
When I moved to “the ranch” this summer, I was thankful for the quiet, the solitude and the “alone time”. It is a great place with the panoramic hay fields and surrounding mesas for creative inspiration—a blank canvas for the soul. I love it! I am rejuvenated in the core of my being!
Sitting in tall grass as the sun comes up and the half moon sets over The Sleeping Ute Mountains is Heaven. Wandering with Gypsy through the fields of grass and wildflowers at dawn while the deer sneak past her radar nose is pure Delight!
The flip side, if there is one, is that I am alone. (It’s like the expression about being your own boss—the upside is that you are your own boss and due to human nature, so is the downside!).
The other morning I awoke with a “behind the scenes” whisper of doubt. Doubt?!? Yes, a creeping sensation of, do I dare say it, inadequacy. WHAT!?!? For months, I have been centered, steady, present in the moment, loving Life. WHAT WAS THIS??!?!
I IMMEDIATELY called a dear friend (and a wonderful coach) on the East Coast (THANK GOD FOR TECHNOLOGY!!!!) and left a “PLEASE CALL ME BACK ASAP” message. You know the kind. : )
Then I gave myself a pep talk in the mirror! Remember last week’s post? : ) (Also, if you haven’t already done so, go to “Extras” and check out “Jessica’s Affirmations”!). Cheering myself on in the mirror helped, and even though the
nagging continued, it did not stop me from putting one foot in front of the other, “showing up” and getting done what was needed.
It just didn’t FEEL GREAT! Am finally learning at this juncture in Life that discomfort is NOT the same as inappropriate! So, I kept going, slogging through and getting IT done.
When my friend (and coach!) got back with me, just having a conversation with her made me feel better! I realized that sometimes, especially when we are NOT surrounded by like minded others, or when those around us are caught up in a paradigm of frantically dashing here and running there, it is VERY easy to lose sight of our inner sanctuary and our inner knowing.
We NEED each other to mirror back our inner truth. We NEED this! It is NOT optional for most of us; especially as women, we generally NEED to “talk it out”. (An FYI–This is one of the primary benefits of having a good Life Coach—someone to MIRROR BACK our truth!!!).
The conversation revealed that Life IS good, that I AM being and doing what I need and want, AND that, “Yup!” (to quote E. Tolle) “…it’s a mad, mad world” and therefore must not be taken personally as Don Miguel Ruiz has suggested in his, “The Four Agreements”.
The thing that struck me afterwards is that for months before moving “out here”, I had been making regular deposits of love and affection into the bank account of personal well-being. Connection, hugs, laughter and delight filled my “in town” Life.
All that changed when I came here to write and create show material. I didn’t even notice for a month or so as the Well-Being Bank Account of my Life began to run low. I see now that, especially when changes take place in our lives, it is important as with any bank account, to keep tabs on this particular balance and to make timely deposits. It is a sound investment!
SO, when you feel out of sorts, find a friend, call a coach, sit and chat! Talk it out! Work it through!And find how quickly you are once more enjoying life and glad to be alive! Those deposits into your Well-Being Account of Life really do pay off.
Many Blessings of Well-Being and Joy! Emily
© 2010 Emily A. Easton